Day 90, 91
So today was the end of my 13-week journey into the world of weight management. I think weight management is more like life management, because I have learned it has been my life choices that have most effected my weigh.
First of all, my idea of doing curls was eating the cheesy kind and working out was doing Nestle crunches. I was on that diet where you eat everything you want and pray for a miracle. Of course, since I have learned the road to failure is the path of least persistence. I would go on a diet, any diet that I thought would give me a quick weight loss. Anything fad I tried: cabbage soup; fruit only; vegies only; meat and cheese only;, no fat....; get the picture. Since I'm a very persuasive person, I can convince myself of anything and I was convinced I could do these crazy things and lose weight. Obviously if Zombies eat brains, I'm safe.
I have learned that life is easier if you just commit to being part of the problem. It has been and always will be to loose weight. You must put out more energy than what you take in. The problem that I had to deal with was emotions and perceptions. I am sad, chocolate. I am happy, steak, loaded baked potato and pecan pie. I feel knocked around in life..."It's just NOT fair," I take a deep breath and go to my happy place, Tthe fridge. And trust me, I did not eat the lettuce.
I have learned when I have these feelings I can use what my team and group have talked about as alternatives. Let me be the first to tell you; the first time you give those "other" options a go, you feel uncomfortable, because they don't feel as safe as your old coping methods. So you have to practice, practice, practice; find the ones that work for you and make them "habit." For me writing, physical activity and just taking the time each day to be just "quiet and know that I am" has been the trick to keep me on track.
Thirteen weeks and no cheating, I have "gained" a loss of about 42 pounds. Now the hard part starts and I am not going to say "keeping it off." I am going to say the hard part is going to be "staying healthy." Sure, I love the weight loss: I can see my lap, cross my legs, get up from a chair without rocking to and fro, and tie my shoes with ease, among other things. But I REALLY love not losing my breath when I climb a simple flight of stairs, hiking and biking with my beautiful grandchildren Cassie, Scarlett, Hunter and Violet, and the feeling of WANTING to do those things. When weight becomes too much of a burden, it is easier to just sit back and observe life, instead of experiencing the joy of participation.
So this is the end of this chapter of my journey, but there are more chapters to come. I am forever thankful for all the support I have had from friends, family and co-workers. I am aware I have a way to go to get where I want to be, so this is my plan:
- Weigh everyday morning and night.
- Document what I eat daily listing calories.
- Document the physical calories burned each day.
- Plan my day to include exercise even if only 15 minutes per day.
- Include quiet time in my day.
- Choose foods as I was taught by Kristina in my weight management classes.
- And my last fitness goal is to weight what I told the DMV I weigh.
It's been a fun ride.
I am In The Box.